A Week Already

Can't believe that it's been a week since my last post. I'm slacking off with this already, but I will try to update more often. It's been a pretty standard week, class, work, soccer games, sex....I know...I know. I said I would play shakara, but it's really hard with him. I just don't express my feelings to him though...does that count?

Anyways, he told me that he doesn't care who I date...but when the time is right "he would come back for me" so that we could get married. Let me just add him to the list of seven other guys who have told me this. Actually...it's not really like that because I actually like him too. Did I mention that we dated for a while two years ago?

Yes...it's time I start bringing out the old stories.

Laziness

Laziness has kept me away from this blog, well and life. Luckily enough I happened to pass my class! Yes...one step closer to my future!!!

So I made a mistake, last night I told Victor that I loved him. And somewhere later when I was laying on his lap, he told me that I should not be "easy." In the sense that...guys like it when you play "shakara." You know, be in a relationship with them, but never let them know how much you like them. Well, I was semi-upset with him after that, but more with myself. I have never been the first person to say the L-word. And I did that this time...stupid stupid AS.

Well, I'll show him now. That's how it's supposed to be, well then he will never get any kind of affection from me. And maybe if I do that as well, I can forget about him. What kind of guy has that kind of attitude? Nonsense. He's hit a permanent dry spell with me...seriously.